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When I say I must write, I don't mean I must publish. There is a great difference. the important thing is the chaotic form given to my chaotic experie...more

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Remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling to it. I want to become acutely aware of all I’ve taken for granted.

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I want to live and feel all the shades, tones, and variations of mental and physical experience possible in my life. And I am horribly limited.

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It is as if my life were magically run by two electric currents: joyous positive and despairing negative - whichever is running at the moment dominate...more

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What I fear most, I think, is the death of the imagination.

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I’ll never speak to God again.

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How we need that security. How we need another soul to cling to, another body to keep us warm. To rest and trust; to give your soul in confidence: I n...more

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The thought that I might kill myself formed in my mind coolly as a tree or a flower.

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Life was not to be sitting in hot amorphic leisure in my backyard idly writing or not writing, as the spirit moved me. It was, instead, running madly,...more

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I could feel the tears brimming and sloshing in me like water in a glass that is unsteady and too full.

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But life is long. And it is the long run that balances the short flare of interest and passion.

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My mother had taught shorthand and typing to support us since my father died, and secretly she hated it and hated him for dying and leaving no money b...more

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Dying is an art.Like everything else,I do it exceptionally well.I do it so it feels like hell.I do it so it feels real.I guess you could say I have a ...more

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LADY LAZARUSI have done it again.One year in every tenI manage it--A sort of walking miracle, my skinBright as a Nazi lampshade,My right footA paperwe...more

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I buried my head under the darkness of the pillow and pretended it was night. I couldn't see the point of getting up. I had nothing to look forward to...more